I realized upon looking over my last few entries one may assume that I only have one child. That the elusive Jack I mention here and there could be the dog or an imaginary person I just made up.
No indeed Jack is real. He is another wise known as Ally's little brother.
Jack just turned 8 months this past Monday and I can't believe how time has flown. Has it really been 8 months? He is the most perfect boy baby I've ever seen.
I've been struggling with some things regarding Jack. Not him but things with me being his mom. With Ally I was home with her for year, so I was lucky enough to breathe in every moment of her first year of life. But alas, when she was a year old we made the decision that it was best if I went back to work full time. Which is where I am now.
I had a very generous maternity leave of 4 months and I was able to work from home for some time. But now I'm back to the office 40 hours a week, and my time with Jack is snippets here and there. And honestly, it's breaking my heart.
When I'm near him the world is just a better place. He loves to cuddle and be held close and his smile could melt a glacier. His laugh is amazing and he began crawling this week, so watch out world! He's a mobile one!
When I'm with him I realize and know all the things I'm missing with him. And I wish I could just stop time and keep him little and with me always. His babiness is just going away to fast, and I'm away too much.
This post has become far more sappy than I intended. I realized that now as I sit hear with giant tears and sobs and my arms longing for that little bundle of giggles and smiles.
I never saw myself as the stay at home mom type, but maybe just maybe I am.....
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